Buffalo Hearts: October 2010

doesn't have a name

I remember that night
too much beer and music
you smiled as I said goodbye
And every time it happens
I have to convince myself
its only a dream
theres no such thing

Suffocate in the thought of it
inhale it till you let that part die
I don't want to take another breath
until your gone
but theres no point in imagining nothing

Open up and let me out of this nightmare that I'm livin'
I don't want to wake to see another day
Open up and let me into your self I know you want it
I don't want to spend another night alone

You say what happens here is off the record
but these words are too vivid to forget
I've saved them for myself
Peel back these layers
and lay beside me with your mouth
these calluses don't hurt any longer

Open up and let me out of this nightmare that I'm livin'
I don't want to wake to see another day
Open up and let me into your self I know you want it
I don't want to spend another night alone

I wish you'd say the words that linger on your lips
but your saving them for someone else
those are the words that are only meant to be whispered in the dark
so whisper them to me

I see you.

I haven't seen you in 8 years, but nothings changed. And so much came back in the two days I saw you. You are my SAB (we're the only two people who will ever know what that means). I miss you already. Things didn't work out this time, maybe one day they will. Maybe one day we will be exactly where we're suppose to be, and that location will keep us close enough for visits and talks and remembering. I think I will always have that school girl crush on you. I think when things like that happen so young, they are imprinted on us. It just never goes away. At least for me, it never has. Miss you.

-Meg