New Beginings

Three things:

1) I have a new job

2)New outlook on relationships

3)Narrowed down Halloween Costume.

-I have four days left at my old job, can't wait to start the new one! Its about time, it's about change. Enough said.


My name is Megan, and I'm an addict.

I'm addicted to relationships. How I feel when I'm in them (the good and the bad), how I hold on with all that I have, how they blind me like a drug. I realize now why I haven't been in that many. My body simply will not allow it. I can't keep up. It will kill me. For the longest time I've thought all I really need is someone to snuggle with, that I like at a moderate level, who can be my "go to" person for talks. Companionship, not relationship.

Most people, including myself have always wanted that fire, passion, desire type of relationships. I've had that. It doesn't last. And the disappointment of it is all you really remember in the end. Not the amazing little moments in the beginning. And when you think on it to much, as I do, it becomes a pretty depressing thing. So I'm taking the other fork in the road. I don't want passion, I don't want butterflies, I want companionship, someone I can stand to be around for more than 5minutes. With enough connection to feel when its there, but not enough to make me feel empty when its not.

Halloween here we go...Its down to these 3.


Frightened Rabbit

My life has been pretty quite lately. I think I like it that way.

Also, I think I was Scott Hutchison in another life.

Just sayin'.



Music Makes the World Go Round

"I struggle to find the words to describe the cataclysmic and heart rendering moments we shared. Where beneath Tokyo lights you grasped my hands and warmed them and I just knew. I knew that every person in this world deserved a moment like this. A moment where you knew how to be truly loved without the whisper of a single word."-E

Eh a quote like that can be pretty sobering... if you have no one in your life at the moment that makes you feel that way. I get to hung up on stuff like that, and so I'm trying to take a step back for a while. Refocusing the love.

I love music. And I think for someone who loves it as much as I do, I do a piss poor job of finding new bands to listen to. Thankfully all my friends are pretty music obsessed, and if I ever need something new, they've always got suggestions. Growing up my parents always stressed the importance of the arts, mainly playing an instrument, or two. There were always lessons, always a piano in the house, always a stereo playin' some Earth, Wind, and Fire. I appreciate those things so much more now.

I got into theatre because I was a singer. A shy singer. Why not toughin' the girl up by throwing her on to a stage? And oddly enough it worked. But I want to go back. Back to the time when I was just a singer. I've been poking my head around the music scene, very sparsely, and might have 2 opportunities presenting themselves at present. Just some very simple acoustic investments. Just the way I like them. We'll see how they turn out, but for right now, I can definitely say I'm in love with the idea of them. : )


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