New Beginings

Three things:

1) I have a new job

2)New outlook on relationships

3)Narrowed down Halloween Costume.

-I have four days left at my old job, can't wait to start the new one! Its about time, it's about change. Enough said.

-Hello

My name is Megan, and I'm an addict.

I'm addicted to relationships. How I feel when I'm in them (the good and the bad), how I hold on with all that I have, how they blind me like a drug. I realize now why I haven't been in that many. My body simply will not allow it. I can't keep up. It will kill me. For the longest time I've thought all I really need is someone to snuggle with, that I like at a moderate level, who can be my "go to" person for talks. Companionship, not relationship.

Most people, including myself have always wanted that fire, passion, desire type of relationships. I've had that. It doesn't last. And the disappointment of it is all you really remember in the end. Not the amazing little moments in the beginning. And when you think on it to much, as I do, it becomes a pretty depressing thing. So I'm taking the other fork in the road. I don't want passion, I don't want butterflies, I want companionship, someone I can stand to be around for more than 5minutes. With enough connection to feel when its there, but not enough to make me feel empty when its not.

Halloween here we go...Its down to these 3.