Buffalo Hearts

Stacks

This my excavation and today is Kumran
Everything that happens is from now on
This is pouring rain
This is paralyzed

I keep throwing it down two hundred at a time
It's hard to find it when you knew it
When your money's gone
And you're drunk as hell

On your back with your racks as the stacks as your load
In the back and the racks and the stacks are your load
In the back with your racks and you're unstacking your load

I've twisting to the sun I needed to replace
The fountain in the front yard is rusted out
All my love was down
In a frozen ground

There's a black crow sitting across from me; his wiry legs are crossed
And he's dangling my keys he even fakes a toss
Whatever could it be
That has brought me to this loss?

On your back with your racks as the stacks as your load
In the back and the racks and the stacks of your load
In the back with your racks and you're unstacking your load

This is not the sound of a new man or crispy realization
It's the sound of the unlocking and the lift away
Your love will be
Safe with me

doesn't have a name

I remember that night
too much beer and music
you smiled as I said goodbye
And every time it happens
I have to convince myself
its only a dream
theres no such thing

Suffocate in the thought of it
inhale it till you let that part die
I don't want to take another breath
until your gone
but theres no point in imagining nothing

Open up and let me out of this nightmare that I'm livin'
I don't want to wake to see another day
Open up and let me into your self I know you want it
I don't want to spend another night alone

You say what happens here is off the record
but these words are too vivid to forget
I've saved them for myself
Peel back these layers
and lay beside me with your mouth
these calluses don't hurt any longer

Open up and let me out of this nightmare that I'm livin'
I don't want to wake to see another day
Open up and let me into your self I know you want it
I don't want to spend another night alone

I wish you'd say the words that linger on your lips
but your saving them for someone else
those are the words that are only meant to be whispered in the dark
so whisper them to me

I see you.

I haven't seen you in 8 years, but nothings changed. And so much came back in the two days I saw you. You are my SAB (we're the only two people who will ever know what that means). I miss you already. Things didn't work out this time, maybe one day they will. Maybe one day we will be exactly where we're suppose to be, and that location will keep us close enough for visits and talks and remembering. I think I will always have that school girl crush on you. I think when things like that happen so young, they are imprinted on us. It just never goes away. At least for me, it never has. Miss you.

-Meg